the sadness

I think i want to express it with english today. I just do not know what love is exactly means.
I may not understand it because I never went through that time.
or maybe just a bit only
or may not have been serious in the relationship
I might have experienced once
to recite, but unspeakable and I just hide that feeling

and I feel very happy indeed. i think we have that chemistry, harmonious
but consequently I can feel the true Heartbroken is. its really pain. its like a very sharp knife stabbed your heart and your soul.
now that I think is hate. many questions in my mind...
why you choose it?why?yeah really heartbroken..
i think it was me but its just hope...
hatred increasingly dim
I'm getting old and accept the fact that its not mean to me
but its feel very hurt when we just keep it..yeahh really hurt..
but when we look the person we love is happy,
we are also become happy for their happiness...someone told me to forthright cuz she's have feels itbut i cant..just let it be. it even more better.
i'm smiling but inside i'm dying...